Faith (E)

Faith is a gift.

Faith allows you to believe.

To believe in sometime, somewhere, somehow, something, or someone.

Without faith, there can be no believing.

Once faith is loss, nothing can bring back the belief.

I have been blessed with the gift of faith.

Along with love, there is nothing more inspiring, more liberating, and more fulfilling.

I have been blessed with the gift of faith in the One, my One.

Faith in my friend, my love, my soulmate.

Faith in Selena, the goddess of my dreams, and the inspiration of my life.

I believe in her, in everything she does for me, and in everything I can do for her.

I have been blessed with the gift of faith in her, and her faith in me.

And never have I felt so much beauty inside than when she is alongside me.

A few favorite quotes (E)

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Being your slave, what should I do but tend

Upon the hours and times of your desire?

I have no precious time at all to spend,

Nor services to do till you require.

~ William Shakespeare

There was no reality to pain when it left one, though while it held one fast all other realities faded.

~ Rachel Field

We tend to think of the erotic as an easy, tantalizing sexual arousal. I speak of the erotic as the deepest life force, a force which moves us toward living in a fundamental way.

~ Audre Lorde

To be sensual, I think, is to respect and rejoice in the force of life, of life itself and so to be present in all that one does, from the effort of loving to the breaking of bread.

~ James Baldwin

Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous.

~ Anais Nin

"Be careful Anais, abnormal pleasures kill the taste for normal ones."

~ Eduardo, (Anais Nin's Cousin in the movie Henry & June)

At times, it is strangely sedative to know the extent of your own powerlessness.

~ Erica Jong

Ritual is the act of sanctifying action - even ordinary actions- so that it has meaning: I can light a candle because I need the light or because the candle represents the light I need.

~ Christina Baldwin

Understand the preciousness of the unfulfilled desire. Begin to feel appreciation for the fact that the desire exists, rather than instant disappointment that it has not manifested.

~ Anonymous

"Intimacy is based on shared vulnerability...nothing deepens intimacy like the experiences that we share when we feel flayed, with our skins off, scared and vulnerable, and our partner is there with us, willing to share in the scary stuff".

~ From The Ethical Slut by Dosie Eastman and Katherine Liszt

If you are meant to be in the lifestyle, you will find that, where you were once only walked through life, you will be gliding on air. Parts of you that never were complete will then become whole. In relinquishing control, I have found freedom: freedom to find and be the person I am inside.

~ Miria Hunter

Thou art to me a delicious torment.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

My kink is better than your kink? Never! It is just our way of doing things. What we all need to remember is my kink and your kink is, in the end, OUR kink and we really need to learn to stand together and respect one another for our individuality as well as our collective identity.

~ Miria Hunter

Ultimately, the purpose of a flogging is to inflict pleasure.

~ Mitch Kessler

Subspace is my perfect paradise vacation from busy-mind... blessed be to the Dominant who can stamp my ticket there.

~ Elizabeth

For me, the goal of any of the BDSM activities is to break barriers and boundaries, sending me into a more primal, raw connection...to erase the civilized conventions and attain that connection, space, where there is no skin, no outer layers, but simply raw primal emotion.

~ Stacey

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Lazy days of summer (E)

Picture courtesy of http://malesubmissionart.com/

I was woken up by my Goddess' nails yesterday morning as she was running them over my chest and nipples, occasionally focusing on the latter with some scratching, pinching, pulling, twisting, and biting. Every once in a while, she would run her nails all the way down my torso to my privates, again stopping for a few moments to focus on some localized CBT torment that included drawing deep grooves along the sides of my penis, and some scratching, pinching, pulling, squeezing, and twisting of the C & B (evidently, techniques useful in more than one area...). In a few instances, she found some soft areas where she would just dig her nails in and continue the pressure until I had to squirm or shift because of the intensity of the delightfully intense pain she was inflicting.

My availability to my Goddess was complete on this beautiful day with few things on the agenda, and this wake up call was a sign of things to come...

After a wonderful breakfast at one of our favorite watering holes, we drove to a few places to do some shopping for a variety of household items. A few hours later, tired from our shopping, hours of walking, and unwinding from the stress of the week, we returned home with one thing in mind... a mid-afternoon nap.

But napping is rarely a simple activity in this household. This particular one included my usual locked collar and locked leather handcuffs, blindfold, and spreader bar. My Goddess was intent on me being right by her when we fell asleep, during the nap, and when she woke up. So within just a few minutes, I was bound on the bed with my feet roughly 30 inches apart, collared, blindfolded, and with my hands tied to the top of the headboard of the bed.

As a I continued to slip into subspace, she layed her head on my chest below where my right arm was extended to the top of the headboard, and she had her left thigh coming across my waist. In the growing fog of my mind, reeling from the present scene, and relaxing into surrender and the intoxication of her control, I felt her fall asleep just a few seconds before I drifted into sleep myself.

I awoke a bit later, and fell in and out of sleep several times over an impossible to tell period of time. During my moments of consciousness, I felt drunk in subspace and captured by her dominance, exquisitely fulfilling moments of belonging, submission, and surrender. Then my right shoulder started aching...

What probably constituted the second half of the nap was punctuated by fewer moments of sleep, and for the most part I was awake lying next to my Goddess, awaiting for her to wake up, but for many reasons, also not wanting her to wake up rght then. I had mixed feelings about the combination of the peace brought on by my predicament, the eroticism of the slight but growing discomfort of my right shoulder, and the uncertainty of how long I would remain in this positon as my Goddess enjoyed her blissful sleep.

Eventually my Goddess woke up, and after some gentle teasing, she released me from my bondage. Her post-sleep voice was deep and sexy, her touch sensual yet strong, and the hug and kiss we shared just a wonderful close to some delightful hours intimately shared.

After dinner, my Goddess pulled up some linked femdom videos from blogs and sites she was reading. One link led to another, and we probably spent half-an-hour checking out video clips, and talking about them. Both inspired by the titillating conversation, some sexual service was clearly called for, and the office chair on which my Goddess sat turned out to be an exceptional (and convenient) venue for the spur of the moment inspiration.

A few minutes later, satisfied from these further moments of intimacy and D/s, we moved over to the bathroom where we were going to take a shower together. But m Goddess' hunger had not yet been quenched, and seeing me bent over the bathroom sink for a few moments, she ordered me not to move, and stepped away for a few moments.

She returned with a hard paddle with holes, and after two strokes on the right cheek of my backside sticking out, she came down with a harder blow that left me incapable of remaining in position. After the warm, hurtful impact of the paddle, I felt the reverberations course through my body, and I was stil shaking a bit as I tried to resume my position as quickly a possible. With playful and teasing compassion, my Goddess offered to move on to the left cheek to make sure that things remained in balance. Two gentle strokes came down, and a third slightly harder one finding its mark, again I was unable to remain still.

She admired her artwork on my skin, warm, red, and patterned by several small circles, the signature of the hard, unforgiving paddle she had chosen. While I could tell she wanted to go on, and I had resumed my position bent over the sink for my Goddess to continue, she compassionately decided that I had had enough, and put away the paddle.

My backside definitely felt a new wave of stinging when I got into the shower with my Goddess, but it quickly dissipated by the time the shower was over, even if I remained quite red. Once dried off, my Goddess put back my usual collar and hand/ankle cuffs, and we got ready for bed.

It had been a very good day, and despite fatigue and tiredness setting in, I was sad to see it go. We couldn't get close enough to each other as we fell asleep for the night.

On service... (E)

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A Day with Dymion In Chronological Order (S)

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• I love that moment of Zen as I wake up...groggy...yet realizing I am starting another day with my prince.
• I love looking over at him and running my nails down his chest (and other places).
• I love the sounds he makes as he slowly wakes up to my devious mischief.
• I love it when he gets up to make my coffee and brings it to me bedside.
• I love it when he sits on the floor beside the bed and just smiles as we have our morning cigarette.
• I love holding his hand for just a second longer as I walk out the door to go to work.
• I love hearing "love you more" as the door closes.

Then I head to work *bummer sigh*. But soon it's lunchtime!

• I love going to lunch with my prince.
• I love our mid-afternoon chat (even if it's icky work stuff).
• I love looking at the clock around 4:30p and seeing it is almost time to go back home to him.

*relief sigh* Yay! I'm home!

• I love the "click" as the collar locks...that's hot.
• And then there is playtime...yeah, I love that...really love that. Did I mention I love that?
• I love the post-cigarette.

*satisfied sigh* Ok, bedtime now...

• I love getting tucked in.
• I love the ankle cuffs occasionally grazing my leg under the covers (I love that ownership).
• I love rolling over onto his chest and breathing in that "dymion smell"...he smells soooo good.
• I love that moment of Zen knowing I just finished another day with my prince.

*"life is perfect" sigh*

Of love and human bondage (E)

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Marks of love/submission (E)

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I Love Him (S)

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The chair (E)

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Expressing fantasies... real time... ( S & E)

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Have you thanked your sub today? (S)

My prince, dymion, and I just moved in together a few weeks ago. This is my first 24/7 BDSM relationship. I am so used to having limited time with him between work, real life, etc. Suddenly I feel like a kid in a candy store. Whatever shall I do with all this wonderful time?

Sometimes I watch him sleep. I truly stare in amazement. It is hard to believe I found this man. We once lived on almost opposite ends of the continent yet somehow we found each other. I finally have him in my bed, collared, committed, mine. It is really a dream come true for me. There is something really powerful and rewarding about taking care of someone who loves to serve. It makes other partners seem so one-dimensional. Suddenly my life is in 3D. Things make more sense. Though beyond cliché, I must say it seems I see more color in the landscape, softer edges to mountains, and brighter stars in the sky.

We are still creating his list of duties and rituals to follow. However, I have also assigned myself a task (I’m the Goddess…who else would do it?). I promise to regularly let him know I appreciate his actions and efforts. I appreciate the fact that he is there for me through thick and thin. I appreciate his service, his dedication, and his love. I want him to know that the warmth in my heart is because of him and what he does for me. Just like in any relationship, it is hard work and that should be recognized and celebrated.

So, the question is…have you thanked your sub today?

Weekly report (E)

Drawing credit goes to Nebulos 22

Highlights of the week, in no particular order:

1. every night sleeping in bondage gear: locked collar, locked wristcuffs, locked ankle cuffs; some nights the cuffs were clipped;
2. sexual service while in bondage;
3. foot play/worship;
4. anal play/torture;
5. domestic servitude: in addition to the usual housework, cleaning, and cooking, some new furniture set-up;
6. extended nipple torture;
7. deep nail play;
8. biting (the marks just started fading after several days);
9. nipple torture that led my Goddess to climax;
10. CBT;
11. attending a BDSM munch;
12. light breathplay;
13. and some more sexual service... just because my Goddess wanted it (see post from a few days ago).

I just... can't... get... enough... of my Goddess... So totally addicted to her...

Living 24/7 and expectations (E)

Living a D/s relationship 24/7 is...

1. ... being available to my Goddess' will and desires 24/7, not expecting Her to indulge my every fantasy 24/7.
2. ... serving my Goddess to the best of my abilities whenever it is necessary, not expecting Her to be putting on a performance for me every minute of every day.
3. ... being submissive while with my Goddess, whenever She needs me to be and wants me to be, not expecting Her to be dominant 24/7.
4. ... not being afraid to be myself, and not expecting my Goddess to be anything else than who She is.
5. ... sharing and communicating my interests and desires, not expecting my Goddess to script Her life around what I want.
6. ... sharing and exploring my Goddess' interests and desires, not expecting that Her interests and desires are any less important than mine.
7. ... finding fulfillment in my submission to my Goddess, not expecting that She will get everything She needs from simply being my domme.
8. ... understanding that at different times my Goddess and I may be in different moods, may be in the mood for different activities, may be up for different intensities, and may need different play frequencies, not expecting that we are always in sync 100% of the time 24/7/365.
9. ... making a genuine gift of my submission to and for my Goddess because of how special She is and how She makes me feels when I'm around Her, not expecting instant and constant reward and gratification just because I want to be submissive to Her.
10. ... based on the strength of both the dominant and the submissive, for there is no power to exchange if there is no power to give or to take.

As He Kneels Before Me (S)

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A sense of belonging (E)

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