We have succumbed to our work life lately. More time with laptops, phone calls to make, and just in general we have been preoccupid with vanilla life. At first, it was depressing me. But now, I see it as an opportunity for growth.
I had a particular wake up call last week that has really made me think. I realized I needed to stop worrying about my lack of activity as it pertains to me and really focus on what that was doing to him. My conclusion -- This down time is going to give me a chance to make a fresh start in our deliciously romantic BDMS lifestyle.Dymion has been so patient though I know his desire and attraction for me have not waivered. He has waited for his Goddess to workout her stress and health issues without complaint. Damn, he is the most wonderful man. I miss the smile he gets when he know something sinister is not far off on the horizon. I love the look of vacantness when he finds his subspace. I love that adoringingly gentle look in his eyes when a scene ends and it is just the two of us holding one another quietly. I need these things back...for both of us. It is who we are and how we connect. I am putting all my efforts in bringing us back to the days of pure delight and intrigue. I am quite confident we will get there.
I would be interested to hear if any of our readers have ever gone through these phases. I know it has nothing to do with losing interest, life just gets in the way. So, how did you bounce back? I know we are all different, but I have noticed that many of our readers are like us...couples who love each other madly and find an intimacy in BDSM/power exchange that cannot be matched by any other rituals. So talk to me...help me work through this and help me get back to the days where my dymion was paralyzingly obsessed with his Goddess.
One final point, Dymion and I have not once doubted we belong together through the down times. I just love him more than ever and I want to make our other connection even stronger.